Closing up shop.

Dear readers,


First off, I would like to thank each and every one who has ever taken the time to read my little blog. It has been so great. :)


I have decided to close up shop on It's Only Life. I started the blog back about a year and a half ago (I think) and I've decided to end it here. 


If you kept up with my blog with any consistency, one of the main things you would notice is that I would often talk about my college woes and victories with you. One of the main issues I've dealt with during this season of my life, and having this blog, has been not quite knowing just what I'm doing at college and with my life. I've talked about creative writing, tech writing, and recently journalism. I keep flip-flopping between ideas because I truly have no idea what I'm doing with my life. I felt like that was such a big deal, being in college and having no solid plans. I was literally freaking out every other week because I got so overwhelmed with choices that I still have time to think and pray about. I was allowing myself to be crippled by fear and anxiety by something that I don't need to be afraid of. If you know me well, then you know I don't like talking about my problems with other people. But I was getting desperate so I talked to a couple people. Suffice it to say, they are much wiser than me. And they helped me to see a little more clearly about the whole situation. Over the past couple weeks I've uncovered some deeply-rooted fears in myself that I didn't even know existed. It's been upsetting but freeing at the same time, and I've decided to end this blog, because I am ending this season of my life. This season of worry and resolutions and generally driving myself mad with all the "what ifs?" and "how comes?" in my life. I'm just going to do the things I love to do and wait for God's direction.


I'm not sad at all to leave this little season of my life behind. In fact, I'm quite excited. And I will definitely keep blogging! I've decided to make a wordpress totally devoted to the things that I write. It'll have a lot of the stuff that I posted on here like song analyses and those little pieces that I wrote. I just don't want to write about myself anymore, it's pretty boring. ;)  I'm going to make the wordpress over this week (CAUSE IT'S SPRING BREAK!!) and I'll post the link so you can check it out, if you so desire. :) 




So here it goes.

My name is Molly O'Sullivan and I have no idea what I'm doing with my life, but that is okay because my God does. I will continue to seek out his will for my life, but right now I'm just going to be still. 

Once again, thank you SO much for keeping up with this blog. I won't delete it or anything, because I make a point of never deleting the things I write. :) But anywho, I'd just like to end this post with some of the verses that I have been thinking a LOT about. 

Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. James 4:14



For whoever desires to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake will find it. Matthew 16:25

I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” John 16:33


M

Adventure is out there!

So it's been a while since I have updated on here, and I have a few minutes so here we go:

This semester is going to be one of the better ones I've had at UNT. I am enjoying almost every single one of my classes, and I feel like I'm actually learning something in each one...even math! Who woulda thunk?

Anyhow, the class I'm loving the most is my intro the media writing class. It only meets on Mondays and Wednesdays, but I am learning so much. My professor is incredibly intimidating, and she challenges us all to make the class a priority and do nothing less than the best we can. I know it's only a core class for the major, but then I stopped and thought about it. I came to conclusion that this class may be the most important one I take for this field because it is laying the foundation and teaching the principles I will use for the rest of my journalism career (scholastic as well as out in the actual field).

I really don't know where I see myself in the journalism field. I would love to work for a newspaper. One of the main things I'm learning right now is that all venues of media are merging together, so I may end up working for a plethora of different media outlets. Who knows? Who's worrying? Not me! I'm just having fun right now.

My photography is going very well. I just did my first couple shoot this week and it went over splendidly! I have a couple senior sessions in the scheduling process right now, and overall, I've been having a fantastic time doing the whole thing.

A few weeks ago I bought the Ten-Minute-Trainer exercise program. The program is done by Beach Body and it's basically P90X for people who don't have an hour and a half everyday to devote to exercise. Every workout is just ten minutes and you can do up to three workouts a day. I started a couple days ago and I really had no idea that just ten minutes of intense workout could make me so sore. I love it! :) The program lasts a month and I'm very excited to see how well it works. I'm also coupling the program with eating healthier. Maybe (maybe maybe) if my results are good (which I'm pretty sure they will be), I'll post my before and after pictures. MAYBE.

I'm writing still. Last time I wrote on the blog,  I talked about this idea that I had been cooking up for a while. I'm still working on it, as well as other projects. With the recent changes I've made to my major, I've felt a lot less pressured to get a project finished. I still want to write creative fiction and hopefully get it published, but now that I have a better handle on what field I want to work in I don't feel like a failure if I don't finish something as quickly as I had planned. I'm working on three projects: the one I talked about last time, a new idea, and a very very old idea that I started writing when I was 15. They're all going well.

I absolutely love studying journalism. I'm so excited to see where it will go. But I was talking to a new friend the other day and we were discussing our majors. My friend talked about what he saw himself doing in his major and wanted to know about me. I was telling him everything about the field I'm studying and about how I didn't know where I would end up. As I was telling him where I wanted to end up, I found myself subconsciously thinking that a career is not where I ultimately see myself.

I see myself married and a mother. I realize that most people hear a young woman say something like that and think she isn't smart because she should make something of herself or whatever. But I believe that God has someone out there for me. Maybe I'll have a career first, maybe I won't. It doesn't matter to me. My life will be an adventure no matter what happens. The way I see it, I'm following greatest storyteller in the whole world. He's written my story already, all I've got to do is seek out His will and my life will be an adventure.

Well, it's been lovely catching up. I feel like I say this every time, but sorry for being so inconsistent! Thanks for reading. :)

M